Scary a Before Picture

Granted this is just out of the shower, no makeup, hair not done, but I'm not talking about that. I am talking about my son being 7 months old and I still look like this! I am on my road to change and fitness, but I just can't believe that it has taken me so long to realize that I need a big change and I need it now.

I lost 5 lbs last week, and if my scale is correct I lost 3% body fat!!! The body fat is huge. So lets all hope for a 5 lb weight loss this week. My goal is to weigh in at 198 on Saturday for the Kmart weigh in.

I met a wonderful chika at the gym last week in Step class. Then I ran into her today her name is Charlotte. We talked about our goals and I am excited to see her succeed. She seemed a little down on her luck. We are going to go to Step class together each week.

Kmart Challenge

So Kmart is having a weight loss competition and I entered it! It is a chance to win $10,000 and get a makeover. Two things I love!! Not to mention losing the weight and getting my body back. I am really excited about it. I really feel that I am going to win the grand prize. I am motivated and prepared. Now I just have to do it, which is the hard part, but with $10,000 on the line I know that will keep me motivated.

Every two weeks we weigh in. My first weigh in was 209.8 lbs. My goal by April 5th is 160. That is close to 50 lbs in 12 weeks. I know I can do it. They do it on Biggest Loser all the time, so now it is time for me to be a big loser! I will try to get some pictures up to show before and progress.

Sunday 1ST Weigh in........

Weight:206
size 16/18 bottom
14/16 top
mood: low self esteem, irritable, depressed

Goals for the week:

Drink 90 oz of water a day

Spend 3 hours a day in the gym.

Go to one class at the gym 6 times a week.

Keep food journal with portions in mind

Quote of the day

There cannot be success without failure. I have failed in the past. It is time now to succeed.



This is the back that I want to work for:

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Goal of 50 LBS

It is that time of year, RESOLUTION time. This is the year of fabulousness time. I am going to find my inner diva and bring her to the surface. I will start with my water intake. You can't lose weight unless you drink plenty of water.

So my goal is 90 oz a day.

It might take me all year to lose 50 lbs, it might take me shorter. It doesn't matter how long as long as I am making progress I will feel great. I hope by spring I can start wearing my old clothes and mabey by summer I can start to buy new ones. That would be wonderful!!!!

I don't know if anyone reads this, but if you do please help me to stay motivated and leave a little hello or something. It will help me by knowing that other people know what I am doing. Plus, I am trying to be completely honest with this blog. No bull, just the thoughts going on in my head. Down and Dirty. Sunday will be my stats day. I will log in my weight and plan for the coming week.

I look forward to the most beautiful and healthy me ever.

Fed Up with MYSELF

Today was a realization for myself. Jeff said something to me the other day that I haven't been able to shake.
He asked me why I give up so easily. I thought and thought and I replied to him that I didn't know.
The question really started to get my head spinning though. I started to think about everything, and I do give up. Easy, Hard, It doesn't matter the task, if I can't do it within the time I think it should be done, I simply stop doing it and give up.
This infuriates me!
How could I do this to myself?

MY Resolution to MYSELF is to follow through.
Life is about self discipline. I have always known that, but how can I master self discipline if I give up?

The first thing I am going to do is finally do what I belive in. That is healthy eating and holistic living. I have always been a bit 'granola' in my glamours kind of way, but I really want to learn for myself and live a healthy lifestyle. It is something that I have always wanted so why have I continued to push it aside?

FEAR.........FEAR is my problem!
Fear of failing, succeeding, embarrassment, anything. I have been floating along acting like I know what I am doing, but really not doing it at all.

I went to the gym today and worked out hard. Harder than I have in a long time. It felt great! And each workout should be that way. I have to pay for a gym membership, I should at least repay my husband with having a healthy and fit body

SORE

I am so sore. I have NEVER been this sore. Then again I have NEVER been this out of shape. I can never go back to doing nothing. It hurts to much to start back up. My boody is feeling the shock for sure. I am excited to get to a better place with my body.

Weight: 206 (down 4 lbs!)

I hope to be under 200 by January. January will be my big kick off month. I will post pictures (YICKES) soon. I want to be real with myself and pictures are very real.

New Gym, New Me

I have joined a new gym and I am really excited. I have a new mantra and it is to take each day at a time. Not to look backwards or forwards, but what I can do today, now! It is a lot harder than it sounds. I am trying to overcome my procrastination and to get rid of my clutter. Clutter in my mind, body, spirit, home, and life.

Goals for today:

Go to the gym and make it worthwhile.
Drink my water
organize the upstairs
hang items in the front room

Stats for today:
weight: 207
feeling: awake, but sore everywhere