Biggest Loser

So, the biggest loser is on again. I have been watching since the beginning how many years ago, and every year I wish I was on the show.

How is it that I have all the tools and I still manage to fail when it comes to my weight loss? I know I am losing and I tell myself that it is a slow battle that I will forever have to fight, but what if I don't want to fight anymore???

Don't worry, I'm not giving up. I am still fighting the good fight. I really want it. It is so much in my system and I get so excited talking about eating healthy and how powerful it truly is. I just wonder if my outside will ever look like how I feel, or what my inside looks like?

I'm off to bed to let my mind sort it all out while I sleep.

1 more thing. I will be weighing in every Tuesday along with the Biggest Loser, maybe this time I can actually see something happen for me.

Tracking

I have been tracking my weight on a calander. I wanted to put the input here so I can keep better track of how I am doing and I don't have to keep the calander at the end of the year.
October 1st- 195
September 14-197.8
August 30-195.2
August 29-196.6
August 28-199.2
August 22-200.0
July 31-200.8
July 30-201.6
July 23-200.0
July 10-201.0
July 5-202.8
July 4-203.8
July 2-202.6
June 30-203.4
June 29-202.8
June 23-204.8
End of tracking

Blah

blah, gained 5 lbs due to all my stress the past two weeks and not going to the gym. blahblahblah........

If you haven't read my family blog I was out of power for the last 9 days. Life was very interesting to say the least. My stress level was through the roof. Not to mention my anxiety was out of control too. My face is a bumpy mess, I feel like crap, and I gained weight.

The power is back on, the laundry is done and put away, I am starting to feel my stress and anxiety levels lower and I have a game plan to get going on my weight loss again.

but mostly BLAH.....

One good thing about losing everything in your fridge and freezer is you get to start over and I am only going to place good things in there! Fruit, vegetables, low-fat meats, cottage cheese, you know all the good favorites. I am going to make some beans too.

I am going to try eating a piece of fruit anytime I get a sugar craving. I bought cantaloupe, watermelon, nectarines, and apples. Micah loves all of those too.

I don't think I am going to make any goal, so I will be writing some new ones by the end of the week.

Marathon???

I am thinking of running a marathon next year. It is a huge one here in Cincinnati called The Flying Pig Marathon. The track goes right by our house and we sat outside watching this year. I am very very intimidated by it. I don't run well at all right now, but I have a few friends that do marathons. I might ask them for help and motivation. For now it is just a thought.............I will continue this later.

Clean Office

Well, I finally did it. I cleaned up the office/guest bedroom. Now people can actually stay in this room and not be crowded with all my crap.

I am watching a friends 5 month old baby during the day, and it is helping me be more productive. I guess having more responsibility makes me do more. It is nice to be on top of things again. It can get pretty boring doing the same thing everyday. I just hope that I keep it up. I need a bookshelf really bad for the office. I think with the first weeks money from babysitting I will go and get one. Then I can finish up that room.

Things I still need to finish:

1-friendship kits service project (next Friday deadline)

2-plant the tulips (finish tomorrow)

3-bring couch from garage into guest room (tonight maybe)

4-hang pictures in guest room(???)

5-Bookshelf (Saturday??)

New Motivation

Jeff and I are working on losing weight together. We are both doing the South Beach Diet and on a good exercise routine. Jeff is working out with his Marine buddies and I am back on the New Rules of Lifting for Women.

Last week I lost 5 lbs. I am down to 195 and that makes me offically out of the OBESE catagory and into the overweight catagory. I need to lose 30 lbs to get into the Normal catagory. My overall goal is 146. I picked this goal from doing some research on my body type and BMI numbers.I have only 49 lbs to go. I hope to be at or near my 146 goal by the end of the year. That gives me 4 months to lose 49 lbs. I guess I will be losing it Biggest Loser style and just working hard and not taking to many breaks.

I am not focusing on how much I need to lose. I am just focusing on each day and eating correctly and getting my exercise in. Each day will have its own challenges and so if I take one day at a time I will be more successful. In the end I will be able to look back and see what I have done.

I look back a year ago, and I felt so overwhelmed and unmotivated weighing 220, moving, dealing with a new baby. So much change. This year will be more successful because I am in a more settled place physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

Cruising the Net

While I was waisting time looking on the net I came across a girl's blog that I really enjoyed. She got my attention because she was my age and in her picture she was wearing a white shirt and then a low-cut tank or dress, I couldn't tell it was just a head shot. Anyway, I was thinking to myself I wonder if she is LDS because she was being modest and that is how I would have worn the top. I know I'm a deep person, right. LOL. So anyway, I was reading her blog and insights and found that we have a lot in common. I am going to check back on her blog because I love to see how others are dealing with the same things I am.

For example, cooking-incorporating new recipes and healthier options in the home. Dealing with depression/anxiety/stress. Being a stay-at-home-Mom. Just overall trying to become better and better each day.

She has motivated me to do something that I have been avoiding-cleaning up my office/guest bedroom and get it organized. So I'm off...............................Pray for me that I get it done.LOL