Jeff's nutrition

My husband has finally put all of his trust in me and my nutritional knowledge. I have been studying Beverly International Nutritional supplements for a long time now and convinced my husband to go on their full program for weight loss. He started his first full day yesterday. I say full day because beginning this week we started the eating but not the supplements. We ordered them on Monday and I had them Tuesday afternoon. It was amazing.

I am keeping a daily log of his meals and he is in full control of his exercising program. He just lets me know at the end of the day what he did.

His start weight was 201. Marine Corp standards he has to be 184 or below for his height. So our main goal right now is to keep his muscle mass that he has and lose the fat. He doesn't really want to get huge just get his body fat low so the muscles he has already can shine.

I am just treating it like practice for me because doing his meals everyday for him it will be very easy to do the same for me once I have the baby. My plan is to get on the full program too and do P90X at home. I will have the baby the end of Feb, recoup for 6 weeks, end of march, and starting April to October (that's 7 months and 2 rounds of p90x!) losing as much as possible before we move. One less thing to worry about after we move. I know I said I wasn't focusing on my weight but I am just creating a plan and doing what I can now so the transition will be as smooth as possible. Then once we move I will think about maybe doing a competition and finding a trainer for that.

Interesting

So, since my last post I have changed my mindset. Easier said than done right! I have taken my focus off of my weight and body issues and put that energy towards something I actually have control over right now. SO for the past 4 days I have not bitten my nails!!!! This is huge for me. I see new growth and I use to have to get rid of it. Not so anymore. My nails are healing because right now they are in the worst shape they have ever been in. Most of my nails have some of the nail missing. It is embarrassing and gross to say the least. So far I don't even have any urges to bite them and if I find them mindlessly wandering around the mouth area. I just redirect them somewhere else. I keep a file close by and a buffer to keep them smooth.

I really hope that I can get over this and keep it up by the time the baby gets here. Then once I know I have this issue resolved I am going to move on to something else. I am taking control in the areas I have control.

We are having a GIRL!

Wednesday we found out we are having a GIRL! Jeff and I and our families are so excited. Now we will have one of each. I never thought I would have a girl, or really cared if I had one, but now that I know I am getting one it is sooooo exciting.

A strange thing happened though, Wednesday night after I put Micah to bed I had some time to myself and I was thinking about my childhood and how I want this little girl to grow up and it just made me cry. I was thinking of all the things I have yet to accomplish with my weight issues, money issues (I have a hard time spending money on myself, I feel guilty), and other issues that I am constantly working on. Mainly the weight issue was what was bothering me. How can I change her life and break the cycle if I can't even get ahold of myself. People say if you want it bad enough you will get it, well there is nothing I want more than to be in shape and be healthy and sexy.

I feel like I am doing better this pregnancy than last time, but I am only half way through and there is no telling how much I will gain the last month. With Micah I gained like 5-10 lbs in one month. Walking is the only cardio I can do and I haven't lifted a weight in months. I'm so sick to my stomach about the things I do to myself. My motivation is gone, my will is gone, all I can figure is that the pregnancy hormones are killing my motivation because I don't feel like myself.

I am doing great with my other goals. I am still practicing my cello. My sewing machine is not working properly so I have to take it apart and put it back together and hope that helps it. When Micah and I go on our walks we are picking up trash too. This is a new thing that I started to add to my whole green self. I can't believe how much trash is out there. Even in an area that looks clean if you actually look harder you can find so much garbage, it's gross! We pick up anything that is not part of earth, so even cigarette butts. Yes, we are wearing gloves.

Well, I feel like this was more of a rant and rave post, but I feel better. The weather is cold and the sun hides most days. I know it will be really hard for me to not get depressed this winter with all my odds against me.

Removing the dust

Today was the first time in at least 5 years I took out my cello, tuned it, and practiced for 30 minutes. I couldn't believe it, like riding a bike it just came back to me. I pulled out my first lesson book from when I was 10 yrs old and started at page 1. Relearning the scales, finger positions, correct tone. Now my goal is to practice everyday while Micah sleeps.

My favorite season is Christmas and my most favorite music is Christmas music. My goal is to practice enough to play for my church in December playing a Christmas hymn.

I went to the fabric store and have my materiel for the treat bags. I am going to finish them tomorrow.

Ordered some toxic free makeup to almost complete replacing all my old makeup.

Things are moving along. yayayayayayay.

What good are you doing? What goals have you achieved? Are you on the path that will get you to where you want to be?

Getting along with my Goals

So, I finally cleaned up the basement, with the help of my hubby, and now all I need to do is get all my craft items organized and I will have a fully functioning craft area. I am really excited about it. So, to go along with that I am giving myself a sewing project. I have wanted to start sewing and didn't really know where to start. I am going to make Halloween treat bags for Micah and the new baby. I had a awesome trick or treat bag that my Grandma made me when I was young and I remember loving it. So, I am going to start with that small project and go from there.

Also, along the Halloween lines, I am going to give an other option instead of candy. I haven't decided what yet, but it may be a toy or healthy alternative to candy. There are some really cool websites for creating eco-friendly holidays and good ideas for reusing items for decorations. We will see if it turns out or not, but I like having the option and not spending money.

I am having a lot of fun slowing changing into my new holistic/eco-friendly lifestyle. I am excited to see myself this time next year. I have some great ideas for things down the road and I continue to get ideas from others that I can start right now.

I am still de-cluttering and getting rid of so much junk. I only wish my things on craigslist would sell faster. I am going to work on that later today. I'm thinking repricing and some other ideas, maybe a yard sale on Thursday. I know an off day, but there are alot of people like me that like deals any day not just the weekend.

I will update some more later. I'm off to the fabric store.

Energy is Good

It has been great to get my energy back. I have started Fly Lady again and so far so good. The kitchen hasn't looked so good in a long time. I know Jeff appreciates it. Also, I have been successful in replacing all the soap, bath, face products with good toxic free items. I am working on getting new make-up but that will be a process due to funds. All things in baby steps.

I am feeling really great about this natural path that I am starting and it is really inspiring to make me learn more, always a good thing.

So often I wish that my Grandmother and Grandfather were still around so I could ask them so many questions. They lived so natural and smart and it just got lost on my mother. Many times I feel them guiding me in the right direction though and that brings me great peace. Sometimes when I come across something new, or read something familiar I thankful for the guidance in the right direction.

On another note I have decided that once this baby is born I am going to go to Weight Watchers and get on a program that will help me. I can't do it alone and I need help and I know that WW is a healthy good program. I am forgetting many of the things I learned in my nutrition class because that was 5 years ago and seems like a lifetime ago because of all the things that have happened in that time. I still have a good general knowledge, but I don't feel confident to say things to others anymore. I can't wait to get back to school!!!!!

New Goals

Well, I am pregnant and as of now I am just over 11 weeks along. I have been terribly ill and have not been able to workout, walk, or anything and I am really feeling it now. I am starting to have some good days and I hope to be back in the gym and walking very soon.

SO, since my body is out of my control for the next few months, I'm due at the end of February, I am going to blog about some of my other goals I am working on.

I have always wanted a more natural/holistic environment and I am now working towards that. I have started to do major recycling at our house and I have thrown out all of my toxic beauty products. It is amazing the crap they shove into a product just to make it cheap. The beauty industry is NOT regulated, so they can put toxins, carcinogens, preservatives, and just plain crap in our beauty products and nobody can say anything to them. The ONLY power we have is to not buy the product.

One wonderful website I found is www.mountianroseherbs.com they have items I need to make some of my own products for such a great price. Plus, there is this really cool store in downtown Cincinnati called the African Store. They have pure Shea butter for cheap and also some other great natural products and it is all affordable. I may be the only white girl that shops there (well probably not) but I love it. The owners are from South Africa and they have such beautiful skin.

The most expensive part of all this is finding and buying good makeup. I am a reformed makeup junkie. I would try any product and tell you all about it, but now that I know what they a really made up of my skin crawls at the thought of putting that crap on my body.

Did you know that your body absorbs 70% of what you put on your skin, no wonder most people die of cancer and other abnormalities.

Also, going green with my beauty products help the environment because when I wash my body I am not sending a bunch of toxins down the drain. A while back I switched to green laundry, dish, and hand soap. I buy that stuff at Trader Joe's, but a few weeks back I couldn't get to Trader Joe's because I was sick so I just ran to our grocery store and bought some arm and hammer soap and it is chuck full of chemicals and I could tell after being away from it for so long. All of us would itch in our clothes when we wore something that was washed in the chemical filled detergent.

We are doing ourselves and the world an injustice by using all the toxins we do. I'm just trying to do my part and self educate as much as possible.