This is my new motto and in fact this motto helped me get my butt ready for the gym and go. I didn't want to go and then I told myself, 'you are a runner, you need to get your mileage in' and it WORKED! Love it. Becoming a runner is a major goal of mine right now. It is something that I have embraced because as I get older and whatever life throws at me I will be able to go running, no gym required. I'm not very fast right now and I can't run a full mile yet, but a retired marine gave me some great pointers this morning. He was running beside me and caught up to me while I was picking up the kid.
He noticed that I use my arms alot and asked if I use to play sports, which I did. He said that I needed to relax my upper body and let my arms hang and focus on using my legs to propel myself forward. Apparently I will be able to run faster and longer once I get this down. THANK YOU! I completly understood what he was saying, now to just retrain my body to run like that.
In April I am doing a 4 mile mud run. I have always wanted to do a mud run, I think it looks fun. I know it will be hard, but it is going to be my yearly ritual to see how far I have come from the past year. My goal this year is to finish!~ Next year I can worry about my time and maybe placing.
30 is AWESOME if I do say so myself. Things are getting better and my depression is still here but it is in the shadows a little more each day.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
30 Day Challenge
Today is March 10, 2011 and this is my favorite pair of jeans that I was wearing before my daughter was born.
I saw this on another blog where the girl does 30 day challenges with clothes and I thought that would motivate me more than the weight issue is. Everything is worth a shot at this point because I am getting stronger, faster, but my weight isn't going anywhere because of my eating. So seeing pictures like this will help me stay on track as far as eating goes.
I will continue to keep trying new things because I am not giving up on ME!
What a DAY!
It's all about ATTITUDE! I realized this more than anything today. I woke up happy cause it was my birthday. I didn't let the usual things that get under my skin bother me at all because it was my birthday. I did regular activities today with the kids, with sugar overload, and they were their regular drive me crazy selves, but it didn't bug me because, it was my birthday. See the pattern? I need to have this attitude more often! It was a great day and the kids had a great day and it was mostly because of my attitude that it was this way.
It may have helped that many people called, facebook messaged me, friends brought cupcakes, received a surprise from hubby, received a phone call from hubby, and my best friend took me to dinner. Amazing day truly! I really did get everything that I wanted and this Saturday I am getting a babysitter for the day and night so I can go out and have a girls night! FREE BIRD! That will be fun!!
All and all 30 is looking mighty FINE!
It may have helped that many people called, facebook messaged me, friends brought cupcakes, received a surprise from hubby, received a phone call from hubby, and my best friend took me to dinner. Amazing day truly! I really did get everything that I wanted and this Saturday I am getting a babysitter for the day and night so I can go out and have a girls night! FREE BIRD! That will be fun!!
All and all 30 is looking mighty FINE!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Enter the 30's
Ready or not here it is! I'm glad to put to rest my 20's. It was fun while it lasted, but I have always looked forward to aging. I do joke around and call myself 'old lady'. It's only because the median age for my area is 23! So it is relative. If I lived in NYC I would be a young duckling still-see relative.
What do I want for my 30's? Happiness and a pair of Christian Louboutins! 5 inch sexy heels and red soles, ohhhh my heart sings :) I could save up for the next decade and probably get a pair :( They are ridiculously expensive, but every girl can dream, right?
In all seriousness though the next 10 years so much will happen and change. My 30's will be much more exciting than my 20's. Then again maybe not.......................................LOL different kind of excitement ;)
So what do I wish to accomplish this first year of my 30's? Survival with my sanity! Ha! I don't know really, I just want to live and have fun. Bring back the play in life and teach my kids how to work hard and play hard and serve hard. Serve the Lord, work for what you have, and enjoy what you have, that pretty much sums it up for me, simple.
So, here is to a new begining, a redefinition of who I am. The big 30, at least for a year. So watch out world, Natalie has entered her 30's and they are going to FABULOUS!
What do I want for my 30's? Happiness and a pair of Christian Louboutins! 5 inch sexy heels and red soles, ohhhh my heart sings :) I could save up for the next decade and probably get a pair :( They are ridiculously expensive, but every girl can dream, right?
In all seriousness though the next 10 years so much will happen and change. My 30's will be much more exciting than my 20's. Then again maybe not.......................................LOL different kind of excitement ;)
So what do I wish to accomplish this first year of my 30's? Survival with my sanity! Ha! I don't know really, I just want to live and have fun. Bring back the play in life and teach my kids how to work hard and play hard and serve hard. Serve the Lord, work for what you have, and enjoy what you have, that pretty much sums it up for me, simple.
So, here is to a new begining, a redefinition of who I am. The big 30, at least for a year. So watch out world, Natalie has entered her 30's and they are going to FABULOUS!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Therapy
I am headed to my first therapy appointment today. I finally sought out helped and I have mixed emotions about going, but overall I think it is a step in the right direction.
I know I am suffering from depression right now. I hope it is just that and nothing more serious like bipolar or something that I will have no control over. I haven't really felt myself since getting pregnant with my daughter. All those hormone changes really did a number on me and I have good days and bad days but lately the bad are way more than the good and really for no reason. Anyway, that is why I am getting help. Sort through all the craziness.
Just striving to be the best me possible.
I know I am suffering from depression right now. I hope it is just that and nothing more serious like bipolar or something that I will have no control over. I haven't really felt myself since getting pregnant with my daughter. All those hormone changes really did a number on me and I have good days and bad days but lately the bad are way more than the good and really for no reason. Anyway, that is why I am getting help. Sort through all the craziness.
Just striving to be the best me possible.
Friday, March 4, 2011
One Foot In Front of the Other
I am just thinking one foot in front of the other. One day at a time.
I was able to take a few things off my plate this week, thank heavens, and a few less people are counting on me for certain things. WHEW! I just can't take the pressure, captain.
Ok, so I went to an AMAZING parenting seminar last night that just helped me so much. It was Dr. Kenneth R Ginsburg, America's Pediatrician, who wrote Building Resilience. It is for children and teens but it helped me realize a few things that are wrong with myself. For example, my coping skills. When I am put under pressure I crack. I don't have healthy coping skills. I can handle most things, but when times get really tough, I run and hide. By hide I mean eat! I totally self medicate with avoidance and eating. I don't face the challenge head on and work my way through it by asking for help.
Anyway, I bought the Book. I look forward to raising healthy resilient kids and improving myself. I am starting to feel like I will work through this and I will get the tools to do it. Prayers have been answered! I look forward to the growth that is to come!!
I was able to take a few things off my plate this week, thank heavens, and a few less people are counting on me for certain things. WHEW! I just can't take the pressure, captain.
Ok, so I went to an AMAZING parenting seminar last night that just helped me so much. It was Dr. Kenneth R Ginsburg, America's Pediatrician, who wrote Building Resilience. It is for children and teens but it helped me realize a few things that are wrong with myself. For example, my coping skills. When I am put under pressure I crack. I don't have healthy coping skills. I can handle most things, but when times get really tough, I run and hide. By hide I mean eat! I totally self medicate with avoidance and eating. I don't face the challenge head on and work my way through it by asking for help.
Anyway, I bought the Book. I look forward to raising healthy resilient kids and improving myself. I am starting to feel like I will work through this and I will get the tools to do it. Prayers have been answered! I look forward to the growth that is to come!!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Self-Sabotage
Why do I do this? Why do I have to have this struggle so much? Lord, please whatever I am to learn from this trial, I am ready to understand and learn. Please, please help me figure this out. I need help with the doing and not sabotaging myself.
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