Where did my Motivation go?

I was on such a roll and then life comes in and sidetracks me and now I have no drive to get back on the horse. I was doing so well too! I am feeling hugely disappointed in what I have done while Jeff is gone and I know it is wrong to think this way, but it's true. I know I can make a major dent still if I get up and 'just do it'. But that's just it I HAVE TO DO IT. I love working out, I love running, I really do, but I don't like the cleanup. I can't do anything else in my day until I clean up. Anyway I am complaining instead of acting!

I will dust myself off and start again, because that's what we do. We try, try again! That is what is important, that we try again.

I miss my husband!!!

Off Track

Well, my best friends awesomely amazing baby shower took over every spare second of my life until now. It was last Saturday and I spent all this week getting my house back together and my son in school. Now I feel like I can refocus on losing some more weight and see how far I can get before Jeff gets home. Yes we are on like the 70 day count down to his return. Somewhere close to that anyway!! I am excited to see him and have him back, but at the same time I am feeling majorly disappointed in myself for all the things I have not done yet. Like I am seriously behind in my weight loss, I haven't saved as much money as I was hoping to, and I guess these are the two issues that always bug me! Why can't I be happy with what I have done, and why do I make these goals that I always seem to not meet. I make progress, but I don't meet the goal. Then I get frustrated by that. Then I hear others that have lost like 60 lbs in the time the guys have been gone and I think, what the hell is wrong with me, why can't I stay focused and get it together?!? Ultimately I just want to make myself and my husband proud of me.


I never started Insanity like I was planning to do. I am scared of it to tell you the truth! I am going to muster up the courage and do it though. I really really need to do it!

Ok, pitty party over. Let's get back to it!!!