New Rules Of Lifting For Women DAY 1

I was not motivated to restart P90X again so I started a program that I know I love again. The New Rules of Lifting for Women. I am going to incorperate running too so I can get ready for the two 5K runs I am doing.

Here is what I did today

Squats bar plus 10#/12 reps, 15#/12 reps, 20#/12 reps

alternating
push ups 60 degree angle BW/12, BW/12, BW/12
seated row 60/12, 65/12, 65/12

alternating
step ups 5/12, 10/12, 10/12
prone jackknife 8, 8, 8

Going on a 3 mile walk/jog after lunch taking the kids to the park and library.

Unmotivated

I have every tool possible to achieve success with my weight, except the one you Have to Have, SELF CONTROL.

I continue to self sabotage and now I have lost my motivation to go downstairs and do my workout. I know that the program works and that all I have to do is do it. I know what I should be eating and not eating, yet all I do is eat what I shouldn't. I have goals, but I don't do the things to meet them. What is causing me to be like this?

Waking up early to workout is not happening! No matter what I plan or anything, I am just to tired in the morning to get up any earlier.

I know that if I just focus on my diet then I don't have to worry so much about my workouts. As easy as that sounds, it's not.

This is my constant battle, I hope one day I can find some sort of balance and happiness, but for now it is still my battle.