Fed Up with MYSELF

Today was a realization for myself. Jeff said something to me the other day that I haven't been able to shake.
He asked me why I give up so easily. I thought and thought and I replied to him that I didn't know.
The question really started to get my head spinning though. I started to think about everything, and I do give up. Easy, Hard, It doesn't matter the task, if I can't do it within the time I think it should be done, I simply stop doing it and give up.
This infuriates me!
How could I do this to myself?

MY Resolution to MYSELF is to follow through.
Life is about self discipline. I have always known that, but how can I master self discipline if I give up?

The first thing I am going to do is finally do what I belive in. That is healthy eating and holistic living. I have always been a bit 'granola' in my glamours kind of way, but I really want to learn for myself and live a healthy lifestyle. It is something that I have always wanted so why have I continued to push it aside?

FEAR.........FEAR is my problem!
Fear of failing, succeeding, embarrassment, anything. I have been floating along acting like I know what I am doing, but really not doing it at all.

I went to the gym today and worked out hard. Harder than I have in a long time. It felt great! And each workout should be that way. I have to pay for a gym membership, I should at least repay my husband with having a healthy and fit body