Good Greif!

Anyone else watch Charlie Brown and remember that phrase?

This is how I feel today after having a conversation with, for the sake of privacy we'll call her hellraiser. Every time I talk to hellraiser, she manages to suck the wind from my sails and strums up feelings inside me that make me act exactly the opposite of how I want to act. She really pushes my buttons and says things to me that make me want to scream. I want to cut out this person from my life but it is impossible! This person will forever be in my life, so the other option is I learn to deal with how this person effects me. I have NO IDEA how that is going to happen. I may need a therapist for this one.

I have been feeling so good and now I feel so crappy! Why do people feel the need to emotionally toy with others. It's not nice!!

Friday's Weigh In

Ok, well Friday I weighed in at 211.4. Which I am okay with after all the crap and stress that happened while my Mom was here. Lets just say it didn't go well. A trip to the E.R. then tons of junk food because that is what she wanted and I just don't know how to tell her 'no' when she gets in a 'crazy' mood.

Anyway, I am back on track and already did a 2.6 mile walk this morning and doing it again this evening after dinner. The kids love the walks. That is extra motivation to get out there and do it.

Jeff arrives in a couple days and I was hoping to be farther along, but it is what it is. I know that I am on a good track and I shouldn't have to many more hiccups.

The goals I'm still working on. I want to go over a few with Jeff when he gets here so they will probably be ready by Oct. 1.

Pictures will have to wait. My home computer is messed up and I have to use the laptop which is with Jeff.

Well, that's all for now. With God ANYTHING is possible!

Support

I started a support page on facebook for a few friends. We are all on the weight loss goals right now and so we decided to do a weight watchers type support group, with weekly weigh ins and recipe swap, etc. Plus, this way we keep each other accountable and we can celebrate the successes too. If you want to join, you can. It is closed to members only so your stats and information is kept confidential. It is under common interest, health and wellness, called Perfect 10!.

So, the first weigh in is on Friday! I will be keeping this journal still and posting pictures and stats here. I will weigh in each Friday and take pictures once a month. The first set this Friday September 17. Next set will be October 17. This way I remember.

I am trying to get my routine down before Jeff gets here. That way when he comes I don't have to big of bump in my weight loss.

I am still developing and working on my other goals, but I am super excited about them and extremely motivated! Maybe I will finish them tomorrow and post them. I will see, I'm not rushing myself anymore. I am the new improved back to being me, ME. :)

Tomorrow?

In my last post I said I would be back tomorrow, well as you can see that didn't happen. Mainly because my Mom has been here visiting and that was an event to say the least. Let's just say it went badly and she left early.

I am happy to be alone again especially after all the drama that ensued. I have some great new goals, but before I post them I want to get them down on paper and make an action plan.

I like my new Ward at Church. They will never be the great people in Cincinnati that I love so much, but they look to be great in their own way.

I still like the house we are in and I have about 90% of the boxes unpacked and put away. I have some organizing in the house to do, but that will come with time. I'm not that organized so it takes me a while to figure out what I want to do. When I open the boxes that are left in the garage I put the stuff away immediately. This way I don't have stuff laying around all over. The only stuff kind of laying around are things that need to be hung up. I am waiting for JEff to get here before I hang anything.

I have stopped nursing Carmen. The stress was effecting my milk supply and she just wasn't getting satisfied anymore. She is a much happier baby now that she is on solids and a bottle. I am very happy I was able to nurse her for 6 1/2 months. I wanted to go a year, but am happy with what I got.

Micah is not wanting to potty train right now. He can do it, he just doesn't want to. So we are waiting on that again, until he is ready. He does start Pre-school in the next week or so. It is FULL day!!! Crazy to think my 3 year old will be gone from 7:30 a.m. to 3 p.m. Monday thru Friday!! Very Crazy!!

That is all for now.Until next time. Push yourself and enjoy the journey!

Feeling Groovy

I'm back and I feel great!

We are all moved and I have a few boxes left to unpack but that will get done in due time. I have been running around with my head cut off trying to get everything done and deal with kids, ya know normal stuff.

My sister came out to help me move and while we spent our last days in Cincinnati we splurged on everything. I think I ate everything in sight. Plus, I was drinking a ton of soda. By the time I got to North Carolina I was feeling horrible. I knew I had gained because my new clothes were tight and I could see it in the mirror. I was getting really mad at myself. Why would I do that.

Then, on the 1st of September, I picked up the keys to our new place and it was like a breath of fresh air to my soul. That day my sister and I went to the grocery store and we only bought veggies and chicken. For the next couple of days we worked hard unpacking and eating right and I was off the soda. I wanted one really really bad, but I told myself to 'dig deep and be in control' It worked! I know I am a determined person when I want to be and I just had to have a very real conversation with myself and some help (my sister).

I have been able to eat really well everyday since and I did splurge and have a sweet snack with my friend the other night, but after I ate it I realized that I really do enjoy fresh fruit for a sweet and not sugar.

I feel so good!!! I feel so clean! I am eating good healthy food, not starving, and I am losing the weight!!! That is the best part. I got on the scale this morning for the first time in a while and I was back down to 211.4 lbs. I know before the 1st I was above 217!

I haven't even started exercising like I want to yet. Just doing stuff around the house and moving a lot! I haven't felt this good in a very long time. I know I am back on track and that this is the last time I will see these numbers on the scale. I am excited to see how fast I can get out of the 200's. I am really hoping it is before Jeff meets up with us on the 25th of September. He had to stay in Cincinnati and finish up.

Moving this time really did give me new life. Looking back I was EXTREMELY stressed out and probably depressed. I probably needed to be on some drugs. I feel like I am back and unstoppable. I am friendly and happy and smile every morning I wake up. I hope I can keep this feeling because it ROCKS!

The Lord is great and blesses us so much. I am so thankful everyday for the things and people I have in my life, even you Internet friends! I need you too!!

Well I have to go for now. But I'll be back tomorrow.

Can't wait to see where this adventure takes me!