To Much Candy

I weighed in today at 198! bad bad bad. I am bloated because it is that time of the month and I have had to much of the Halloween Festivities. I know that it isn't 'real' weight because my clothes are still fitting loose. I am getting my focus back and I was really good today. I ate on track and went to the gym. I'm sure next week I will have a better result.

I am looking to be at 191 or less by next week.

We are heading down to Alabama for Thanksgiving, so now I am not only working hard for the ball, but I really want to look amazing going back to see family.

FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS!!!

Good Things

So, I finally feel like I am getting my mojo back. I am getting my confidence back and I fit into all of my clothes in my closet. Well, some are to big now. =) Tonight I went to a church activity and I had 3 different people ask me if I had lost a lot of weight lately. It was nice to see that others are starting to see what I have been working hard for so long. I will keep up what I am doing and I know that I will get better and better.

LIFTING HEAVY WEIGHTS IS THE ONLY WAY TO GO! I know that my body only looks as good as it does right now because of the heavy weights. I do minimal cardio, but really push it hard with my weights and it is working. Like they say the proof is in the pudding and my pudding is getting smaller and smaller. LOL

THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE MEANS NOTHING! So I am still weighing in at 193, but like I said I am fitting clothes that I haven't fit since I was like 180 before Micah. My body has completely changed shape and I believe that my bone density is getting better. I want heavy dense bones so I don't get other diseases. I am losing the inches and that is more important than some number.

BE FABULOUS NO MATTER WHAT SIZE YOU ARE! Owning who you are at every point in your life is so important. I see that now. Next time I am pregnant and feeling huge I will have to come back to this post and remember that I am beautiful no matter what because who I am is most important, not what I look like. I do believe that we should all continue to try and be the best that we can be, whatever that may entail i.e. lose weight, get clothes that fit correctly, new makeup, etc.

Overall, I guess I am doing really great right now. I hope that I can just keep this feeling going and pass it on to you!

Hair cut

Here is a pic of my hair cut. I love it!

193 but.....

I weighed in at 193 today so I'm not down lbs, but I am down inches.YAY. I am down an inch in my waist and an inch in my hips. Both where I need to lose. I will take it.

It is funny the little things that motivate me. I am vain, when it comes to certain things, I'm admitting this right now. The ball is less than 3 weeks away and I want to look the best that I can for it. This motivates me to do more, push harder, and focus. I guess I just want people to think I look beautiful, and really who doesn't think like that.Maybe I am wrong about that, but I'm not obsessed about my looks, just around special occasions.

My dress is sleeveless so I have been working on my arms pretty hard. I am working on everything really.

I had my hair cut today. I really like the cut and I feel like it will grow out nicely. My last cut did NOT grow out nicely. I am a twice a year hair cut girl so when the cut doesn't grow out it really frustrates me.

I will try and get a picture up sometime this week.

Determination

I am no longer watching my friends baby during the day so I am fully determined and dedicating the next 3.5 weeks to exercise and good eating. The ball is that close, I know I can't belive how fast time flyes to. I will be going to the gym twice a day and doing fun activities with Micah inbetween. Walks, going to the park, running, and anything else we can do to enjoy the nice weather before it changes to COLD weather. I am so not looking forward to the winter.

I am reading a really amazing book right now called The Schwarzbein Principle. It is filled with great nutrition information and it follows along with everything that I feel about nutrition as well, at least so far. I checked it out from the library, but it has so much good information in it I am going to purchase it. I am also getting one for my sister because I think she would read it and enjoy it as well.

I love that I have a sister and a brother that are as interested in being healthy as I am. I just wish that I had the same determination to stay on track. I sometimes feel that I am two people with conflicting personalities. I feel this because I am so passionate about being healthy and keeping great care of your body and your surroudings, but yet I do things totally contradictory. I guess the passionate side keeps me motivated to continue to better my choices and my life. I hope that my children will learn from my mistakes and start off far ahead than I did. I guess that is more important.

I doubt I have lost any weight this week. I made pumpkin cookies last Thursday and I ate way to many of them. I love pumpkin season!

Down lbs!

So I did lose this past week. I am down to 193.2

Here are my new goals
6 week goal-Nov. 8, 2008= 186
8 week goal-Nov. 22, 2008=182
10 week goal-Dec 6, 2008=178
12 week- Dec 20, 2008=174
14 week Jan 3, 2009=170 (wedding weight)
16 week Jan 17, 2009=166
6 months= March 9, 2009(birthday) Best body EVER!
8 months= Mayish-get pregnant! Yay!

Biggest Loser

So, the biggest loser is on again. I have been watching since the beginning how many years ago, and every year I wish I was on the show.

How is it that I have all the tools and I still manage to fail when it comes to my weight loss? I know I am losing and I tell myself that it is a slow battle that I will forever have to fight, but what if I don't want to fight anymore???

Don't worry, I'm not giving up. I am still fighting the good fight. I really want it. It is so much in my system and I get so excited talking about eating healthy and how powerful it truly is. I just wonder if my outside will ever look like how I feel, or what my inside looks like?

I'm off to bed to let my mind sort it all out while I sleep.

1 more thing. I will be weighing in every Tuesday along with the Biggest Loser, maybe this time I can actually see something happen for me.

Tracking

I have been tracking my weight on a calander. I wanted to put the input here so I can keep better track of how I am doing and I don't have to keep the calander at the end of the year.
October 1st- 195
September 14-197.8
August 30-195.2
August 29-196.6
August 28-199.2
August 22-200.0
July 31-200.8
July 30-201.6
July 23-200.0
July 10-201.0
July 5-202.8
July 4-203.8
July 2-202.6
June 30-203.4
June 29-202.8
June 23-204.8
End of tracking