Happy

This new training routine is KILLER. I am exhausted everyday, but I am sure that is what my body needs to get through this plateau. I took yesterday off because I was so tired, but today I went to spin as planned and pushed myself through the pain and I feel good now. I am going to try and get to the gym tonight.

Last night Jeff finally said what I needed to hear for a long time. "who cares". I was telling him that I was depressed because of this or that and what if I never get down to where I want to be and he said 'who cares, you are beautiful and sexy being you.' I have always put so much pressure on myself because I don't want to let anyone down and I don't want people to judge me, but really WHO CARES what others think! It only matters what I think. That release last night took the huge boulder of my shoulders and I can now enjoy the journey!

I am going to do what I can until we start trying for a baby. Then I am going to keep exercising while I am pregnant and be happy with the body God gave me, after all it is a powerful machine.

Training

Today's training looked like this:

warm-up and stretch

Lower-body weight training circuit 1: 15 reps, no rest between exercises, rest 30 sec between each circuit, and repeat 3 times

*walking lunges
*plie squats
*lying leg curl

Cardio Burst-
*100 Jumping jacks
*50 squat jumps
*50 50 bench rebounds
rest as needed

Lower-body weight training circuit 2: 15 reps, no rest between exercises, rest 30 sec between each circuit, and repeat 3 times
*straight leg dead lift
*bench step ups
*deep squat pulses

Cardio Burst-
stepper intervals for 10 minutes.

For extra fat burn I will do at least 30 more minutes of cardio today. I plan on walking to the library (1 mile away), doing a 25 min Pilate's video, and maybe 30 minutes of swimming tonight.

Bikini Routine

Yesterday I started a new lifting routine from Beverly Internation's recent newsletter and they workouts are KILLER! The routine comes from Julie Lohre for the new bikini contest added to the NPC. I love that they added the bikini round and am actually excited because after I have our next baby I truely think that I could do the bikini. It really just depends on how muscular I really am under all this fat. I know that Jeff likes the softer look of what the bikini girls will be.

Food journal is still working wonders. I am doing much better and feel like I am pushing through this plateau.

Groovy

the food journal thing helped today!

I went swimming tonight on top of spinning class this morning. I am feeling it for sure! Tomorrow is lifting and cardio.

I am going to push through this plateau!!!

Today I am feeling groovy

Food Journal

Well, after avoiding it I have started a daily food journal. I know how great they are, but I was just plain LAZY and now it is showing with my 3 month plateau that I just can't get over. The food journal will help me stay on track and also give me guidance on what is working and what isn't.

I know now I will start to see results again with my workouts and now my food staying on track. Go Food Journal!

Frustrated!

I'm frustrated with myself, with my body, with my complaints, with everything! I am at a constant battle with myself. I don't know how to get over this. I am going to change my routine up and see if that helps. I went to my first spin class today and it was awesome so I am going to do that twice a week. On top of that I am going to go to the gym twice a day. I am also streamlining my meal plan so I don't have to many options and I can keep track of what I am eating. I feel like my eating is what is keeping me from seeing my results.

Another thing that I am frustrated with is that I plan and then life happens and screws up my plans and it is very hard for me to adjust. For example, if I plan to go to the gym in the morning and something comes up, I don't go later that night. I really hate the crappy daycare hours at the gym! I also hate this cold weather because I am not active at home at all, other than housework.

I am just really upset. I feel like I should be so much farther ahead than where I am and I feel stuck! I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I am driving myself crazy!!!!!

Pink and Ellen Sing

This cracked me up!!!

http://ellen.warnerbros.com/2009/02/ellens_bathroom_concert_series.php

update

yesterday my workout went great! Eating was good and I don't feel like I overate. I did have a miniature chocolate, but only one. Today I was having bathroom issues so I only did half of my run, BUT I was able to run the entire 40 minutes which is HUGE for me. I was very impressed that I found a rhythm and went with it. It is exciting to accomplish the small goals along the way.

side note: I'm watching ellen while typing this and Pink is performing and she looks awesome!!!

Anyhow, I am just trying to stay focused and not look at how far I could be but how much I have already done. I was talking to Jeff and we both think that I am in the best shape ever I just have a lot of fat layers to shed. I have amazing endurance and feel great, but I really need to get the fat off.

Jeff has been counseled on his weight and so he is really trying to get his weight back down to regulations too. I figure I should be an example and get down with him. I have 30 lbs to go to get to Marine Corps maximum regulations for females. Jeff has about 25 lbs to lose.

Training Plan for the Week

Monday: 20-30:00 SRR; Whole body Lifting
Tuesday: 75:00 - 2 hour (10m) LR
Wednesday: 20-30:00 SRR; Whole Body Lifting
Thursday: 45-60:00 MRR with 4 times 2:00 HC
Friday: OFF Playgroup
Saturday: Whole body lifting; swimming 30 min

Last week was a bust I was only able to workout 1 day because of the snow. BUT I did get a compliment from Jeff's boss who hasn't seen me for a couple weeks. He asked if I had lost weight cause I was starting to slim down, so that was nice. Jeff is doing a lot better about saying things too. I love my hunny!