32 Days and Stressed OUT

OK, I have 32 days until we move and it is really hitting me that this is happening. This is a juggling act that I am currently involved in and all the pieces have to move just right for me to continue this juggle.

I am getting things done and organized but I am having to rely on other people to do their jobs and waiting is no fun. I am not a sit around and wait kind of person. When I am working on something I like things to get done and answers quickly. I still have tons to schedule and I can't do any of that until I have more solid dates. I HATE BEING LAST MINUTE.

This is why I have Plan A, Plan B, and Plan I don't know exactly but somehow it will work.

One a POSITIVE note Tomorrow starts a scripture read-a-thon for our young women. We are reading all day Friday and Saturday. I am very excited about this and I know the girls are looking forward to it too. I'm needing a good spiritual lift with all the chaos going on around me.

I haven't been sleeping at night for the last week because of Carmen. I thought she was teething and that is why she was getting up every 2 hours at night. Come to find out, she is just hungry and needing more than just breast milk. I had no idea. Today I fed her rice cereal twice and I am hoping that will help her get back to sleeping through the night. I REALLY need some good sleep.

That's all for now, I have lots to say, but things I need to do are more important right now.

Not Your Momma's Egg Sandwich

I love to cook and create in the kitchen. I have never been good at art, but have always felt like in the kitchen I could express myself like others do with drawing or painting. Last night I wanted something cold to eat for dinner and wasn't in the mood to stand over the hot stove. So I came up with this awesome Egg Salad Sandwich. I just started pulling things out of my fridge and this is what it looks like, and it tasted AMAZING!

I started with Whole Wheat Bread, added Avocado, Cucumbers, mushrooms, and then topped the veggies with Romaine. The other side had 2 eggs, a little mustard, mayo, salt, and pepper. Let me say that the avocado, egg mix was so good, and the lettus and cucumbers gave it great crunch. The mushrooms were lost in it all, so I probably wouldn't add them again, unless I am just trying to get in as many veggies as possible.

Organic and 34 Days

I am a huge supporter of buying organic food. Not feeding myself and my family a bunch of pesticides and chemicals is very important to me. There are many many more reasons out there (the Internet) you can research them, but here is some food for thought for ya:


If a bug doesn't want to eat the food, why would you??


Anyhow, support your local farmer, join a community supported agriculter (CSA), or check out your local Coop. From the mouth of Micheal Pollan "Eat food, mostly plants, not to much."


My day has been ok. I am very tired! Carmen is having sleeping issues because of teething; therefore I am not getting much rest at all. I did a 30 minute plyometrics workout and hopefully I can go for a run once the kids go to bed tonight.



All this exercise has been great for the 'spark' in my marriage. My husband has been walking around with a smile on his face lately. :) One more reason to incoperate exercise into my day.

stats

NROLW A Day

Squats: bar+20#/12 reps, 25#/12 reps, 30#/12 reps

Pushups: 6 rung/12 reps, 6 rung/12 reps, 5 rung/10 reps
Seated Row: 65#/12, 65#/12, 70/12

step ups: 10#/12, 10#/12, 15#/12
Prone Jackkinfe: 8, 8, 8

I am really tired. I was going to go on a run tonight but it's not going to happen. I don't want to completly burn out! Making good progress looking forward to my results at the end of the month.

TOMORROW'S PLAN:
Plyometrics X and a run. I was going to do spin class but our membership at the YMCA is on hold until Jeff fills out the paperwork again.

I will run in the morning and do Plyo when the kids are napping.

35 Days

Have already done a 1.6 mile walk this morning, diet on, motivation in check!

Headed to the gym to do some lifting which I will report later.

Feeling good, feeling like I am going to make it

36 Days

Thanks to Heather, a fellow blogger, recommending a post by one of her blogger friends Keely. She had a post about her success and how she did it. And of course it was all about JUST DO IT! True words that I needed to hear. It was well written and so matter of fact, just the way I like.

The past 4 days have been pretty good. I am eating well and have been able to get in at least 20 min of specific exercise each day. I am enjoying my jogging and now have incorperated our stairstepper because it is soooo HOT. We had a Heat WARNING yesterday. Not the kind of weather you take your baby out in, no matter how bad I wanted to go out and run.

Still at 213 but I know I won't be there long. This week I plan to do extra activities because I have an activity all day Friday and Saturday with the young women in our church. So, I won't be able to get in my exercise and my food will be controlled by others. I will just make sure not to over eat and keep my food in portion control. I'm looking forward to this activity, it is to help the girls build their spiritual food bank.

No Excuses, JUST DO IT! that's my motto for the next 36 days and beyond.........................

Purpose

So I feel like my greatest purpose in life is in the direction of nutrition and holistic health. Over time I have been pulled in that direction and it is the thing I am most passionate about. I love educating people and talking to people starting the first step to a better life. It energizes me so much. I feel like I keep having these 'ah ha' moments that seem to make sense to me and put another piece of the puzzle together for me.

My dearest friend and I feel the need to work together. We have great energy together and feed off each other really well. We have talked of many different things to do together, but all of them have not been on either of our paths. It would require us to both change complete directions. BUT today I kind of had an 'ah ha' moment and things started to make sense and so I foresee in the future Jen and I doing some truly remarkable things. I told her that as soon as I move to North Carolina we need to get together for a SERIOUS (because when we are together nothing is serious) brainstorming and business meeting. We have this ultimate goal that we want and before this idea it really seemed beyond our reach, but now I am starting to see the building steps towards it.

I have felt so EXTREMELY blessed the past couple days. So many prayers have been answered and so many things have unfolded before me to make life more enjoyable. I realize that God speaks to me through people pretty often and that is why it is so important to keep myself surrounded with good, inspired people. I had a pretty serious dream last night, which I won't go into detail here but it really put some things into prospective for me.

Life really is about the JOURNEY!

Do something amazing today and serve with LOVE!

Day 38

Diet is off a little because I had lunch with a friend and she made the most amazing food. Fresh corn chowder, and bacon lettus tomato (me minus the tomato because of Carmen's intolerance) so yummy.

It is really hot today and I am feeling really tired. Hot and sticky, ewww. I know how to handle the dry heat of Vegas, but it seems I never get use to this humid heat. I miss Vegas in so many ways.

Going for a nice jog once the sun goes down. I am starting to enjoy these evening runs.

Day 39

Weight 213
walk 40 min
calories 1706
calories burned 362

Day 39

Weight this morning is 213

Planning on keeping my calories around 1600 and getting in a good 3 to 4 mile walk/jog.

Day 40 stats

Calories: 1650
calories burned: 255
Jog 1.6 mile 21:46

40 Days

I have 40 days until we move to Jacksonville, North Carolina. 40 days to really meet at least one goal in my weight loss battle.

I am going to focus on eating right and having a treat once a week.

My breakfasts will be oatmeal and protein powder. I choose this because of the protein content and because I LOVE it. Also, the fiber is awesome.

Lunch will be a green salad with balsamic dressing, adding some sort of bean to my salad will increase protein and fiber levels.

Snack will be piece of fruit, whatever we pick up from Trader Joe's

Dinner will be a salad and 4 0z of some sort of protein.

Sweet snack for my crazy sweet cravings will be either sugar-free jello, or a 60 cal pudding snack.

Exercise-running. I need to be preparing for the run on August 7th! I still want to do the 5K but I don't want to be horribly slow, so I need to get out everyday and walk, jog, or run.

Also, YMCA time- going swimming, lifting weights, spin class, etc. I need to use the time I have to utilize the things available to me. When I move to J-ville I will no longer have childcare available to me to go workout. So I need to start loving running and quick because it is going to be my only consistent option for a while.

Blogging everyday for the 40 days.

Weighing in everyday for the next 40 days to keep me on track. Today's weight 215, yep I went up. POOP

Paralyzed

That is how I feel right now, Paralyzed. There is alot of change currently happening and will until around October and it makes me feel completely PARALYZED.

I haven't kept to my goals, I haven't been here to update my blog or my family blog. Today I was asking myself why I feel so unmotivated to do anything because I have the same amount of time. I feel like it is because I am not very flexible. If things don't go how I see them or as planned out, then I completely stop. Now sometimes I am able to roll with the punches but it just depends on the circumstances. I need to roll with it.

Here it is the middle of JULY and I am not any closer to my JUNE goal of getting out of the 200's. I haven't been able to get back on track since I went off at vacation. Now I am feeling extremely depressed about it. I don't like being this large. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. I don't like how clothes fit me. I don't like being asked if I am pregnant (even with a 4 month old in my arms, someone still asked me this question). I try not to let it bother me, but it does and it hurts.

I love to workout, but I don't. And of course I have excuses, but all that doesn't make me feel better. Honestly sometimes I feel so drained and tired that by the time I get the kids to bed, I don't want to plan or think about what I should be doing or need to do. I just want to sit and reset. I know that life doesn't get any easier and kids only get more needy and involved, so I need to learn how to deal with it and get going, otherwise this feeling of paralysis will only get worse.

I am feeling overwhelmed also. There is so much I want to improve on and I can always be better. Better me, wife, mom, leader, teacher, etc always room for improvement.

Work Outs day 2 & 3

Yesterday I did an hour spin class, holy moly my legs felt that for sure, especially after the squats from the previous day.

Today was workout B of NROLW

Deadlifts bar+10#/12, 15#/12, 15#/12

superset
dumbbell shoulder press 10/12, 15/12, 20/12
wide grip lat pulldown 50/12, 55/12, 60/12

superset
lunges 10/12, 15/12, 15/12
swiss ball crunches 10, 10, 10

After my workout my whole body was shaking. I pushed myself hard today. Playing with the kids today was hard because my muscles were so fatigued.

I am making sure to take a protein recovery drink after lifting days. I have found a really yummy mixture that I look forward to.

Tomorrow I will take off and just do something active with the family and Sunday will be a recovery day with walking with the family.